May today’s sunshine
Come along and kiss you
Upon your cheek,
Remind you of life’s blessings,
And bathe you in its peace.
May the afternoon showers
Wash away your worries,
And may all of your troubles
Be fleeting.
May God‘s grace
Renew your spirit,
And remind you
Of His safekeeping.
-Tanielle Childers ©️ 8/24
It’s crazy how fast
The past
Can come flooding
Right back…
All the memories
Of yesteryears
And always wishing
You could still be here.
I remember your smile
And all the ways
You made me laugh-
All the years
Remind me of how long
You’ve been gone
But my heart still
Doesn’t know the math.
-Tanielle Childers ©️ 8/24
Little lights flickering-
Like fireflies
In the distance.
The sun-
Slowly tucking the end
Of this wondrous day- in.
I draw in a deep breath-
And then release it,
I close my eyes-
To pause and reflect.
And to rest-
Just beneath it.
There’s a powerful
Energy that breathes
Within the flowers, trees
And natural grasses-
They weave color and life
Across the earth’s landscape-
With such joyous delight-
For the masses.
Dancing and swaying
In the breeze-
With beauty and grace,
And shaking leaves-
In untethered,
And unfurled excitement.
Drinking in
The warmth of the
Glorious sun,
And newly fallen rain-
Relaxed and calm, and still.
And basking in the glory
Of pure enlightenment.
The serenading sunrises
And sunsets
Where sweeping pastels
Paint the sky-
Alive.
Dandelions
Making wishes
And planting
Seeds of hope
For brighter tomorrows-
A thousand times-
Gliding high-
With the wind…
In an effort to
Spread their magic
And a legacy-
Forever to be
Remembered by.
Twinkling lights-
And the subtle moon glow-
Our calming,
Heavenly night light-
Blanketing the earth-
With its falling stars,
And the sweetest dreams-
Trickling down to all-
Who still believe…
In the magic.
-Tanielle Childers ©️ 4.29.24
F it. FIGHT it. FINISH it. FIND a cure.
FIND a way to THRIVE, despite it.
And FORGET it, even if only for a moment.
FOCUS on HEALING and self-care.
And know that it’s okay to FEEL like
your diagnosis isn’t FAIR.
FEEL the big LOVE surrounding you,
And all of the support rallying all around you.
FIND BEAUTY in the quiet moments.
Remember what really matters
and what doesn’t, and then let go of it!
Bid FAREWELL to all
that does not support you healthily.
And do what’s best for you-
both physically and mentally.
FIND JOY in the small things.
Keep FAITH and hope alive.
Don’t sweat that, which you cannot control.
Stop FIGHTING your tears.
Allow them to FLOW, and then let it all go.
FIND and allow FORGIVENESS and grace,
and practice both daily.
Allow yourself time and space
to meditate and pray, FAITHFULLY.
And FEEL your FEELINGS all the way through.
But remember that cancer does not define you.
Give your anger a voice,
and then kill it with kindness.
And give your sadness a huge hug-
Because sadness reminds us-
that we’re only human, going through
an extremely difficult human experience!
FIND your STRENGTH.
FEEL your POWER.
And dig deep for the courage
to battle all the way to the FINISH LINE.
And then FIND, rediscover and recreate
the new you – and your new life…
And I hope you choose to shine.
Stand tall alongside all of the other courageous
warriors, cancer survivors, and thrivers-
Who will continue loving and supporting you,
FIGHTING with, and FOR you-
and cheering you on for the rest of time,
from the sideline.
And honor those who have sadly lost their battle
by living your best life for the rest of your life.
You are more powerful than you know.
And most importantly, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
F CANCER in every way!
-Tanielle Childers © 4.9.24
I’m so sorry-
I gave up on you.
For being angry,
Ungrateful,
And judgmental of you.
Despite everything
You’ve gotten me through.
So, this is me-
Starting a new chapter-
And thanking you.
Moving forward,
I promise to-
Treat you better,
And show you
Unconditional love
That you deserve-
More than ever.
The same love and grace
You offer up
To those around you.
No matter what
You think you see
In your reflection-
You’re enough.
You’re worth it,
And you’re beautiful, too.
And even more so-
Because of every flaw,
Scar, and imperfection
That makes you-
YOU.
You have survived
Every obstacle,
Every hardship,
And every battle
You were brought to.
That says a lot
About your spirit,
And your strength
Underneath.
Hold your head high-
And keep going-
There isn’t anything
You can’t defeat.
-Tanielle Childers 2.23.24
That moment when
Your tired mind
Can suddenly see-
The world,
And your current situation
Through a completely
Different lens.
That moment when-
Your mind shifts,
The clouds lift,
And the sun comes out
Welcoming you back home
To your happiness-
Right where you belong.
That moment when-
The right words are spoken,
And your world suddenly realigns,
And begins
To make some sort of sense – again.
After having been in the dark
For far too long.
That moment when-
Gratitude sneaks back in,
And kisses you
Softly on the cheek.
And you smile in return-
From the inside, out-
Remembering
Just how sweet
The littlest things in life
Can be.
-Tanielle Childers © 2.21.24
Breast Cancer
Kicked me down-
From diagnosis
To doctors appointments,
To consultations-
And further testing.
From big surgeries
To healing and resting-
And then, just when
I was feeling strong again,
It kicked me back down-
And I laid lifeless
After my very last
Chemo round…
And when I thought
The worst was over,
It blindsided me,
And knocked me further-
Down to the ground…
And God brought me
To my knees.
Reaching for me.
Holding me,
And humbly
Reminding me
Of all the healing
I have left to do.
The emotions
That have pooled-
Of all that has happened.
I must now-
Begin to work thru.
My cancer days are
Behind me-
But in front of me
Lies a heavy blanket of grief-
The cancer aftermath-
The emotional rollercoaster.
The forever hangover,
And the reminders
That there are no do-overs.
The loss of what I once was-
Before cancer took
Those parts of me.
And the new reality
Of what now is…
The new ‘survivor’ me.
The traumas,
And inside wounds
I must now tend to.
My broken heart-
Just doesn’t hold
The same magic it used to.
My recovery is far from over.
There’s no end game.
No end date.
But the cancer is gone,
And life should be great.
Except that it’s not.
And that makes me
Feel guilty-
More times than not.
The future feels
Haunting,
Overwhelming,
And daunting.
It feels defeating,
Sorrowful,
And sad.
I feel angry,
And in moments-
Stark raving mad.
It’s hard to wrap
My head around-
The magnitude
Of all I’ve been through.
And no one around me
Understands the depth
Of anything I’m feeling
Or going through.
I’m just back to living
As if everything
I just went through
Wasn’t anything.
Except that it was…
And the sadness,
And mood swings,
And feelings
Are horribly isolating,
And deeply
Heartbreaking.
But I’m still here
Doing my best.
Reminding myself daily
That I’m blessed.
Because I am.
But underneath it all-
I’m still struggling.
More than I care to admit.
My life has forever changed
And I’m not convinced
That I’m better for it
Yet.
~Tanielle Childers ©️ 11.27.22
I’m searching
High and low-
For the rainbow
In my new normal.
Crying, praying,
Pondering,
And wavering
Between hope
And hopeless.
Between faith
And why this?
Feeling all the
weight, and strain,
And bulk of this-
New world
I’m staring into.
A long road ahead
Of healing,
And reeling,
And struggling
To stand tall,
And strong again.
I feel like I’m fighting
Against the wind.
But I always fight
To win.
I’m weakened,
And I’ve been
Hit hard
By chemo treatment.
My daily struggles
Are no secret.
My dignity
Has taken a big hit.
And I’m right in
The thick of it.
Hair loss, weight gain,
Stiff, painful muscles,
Twitching, sensitive eyes,
And Menopause –
Overnight.
Tissue expanders,
And fluid retention.
I’m down at the bottom
Begging for redemption.
Breast Cancer
Is a disease
and a terrible life infection
A life changing direction,
With deepened introspection
Of who and what
I am at my core
Because everything
That once was-
Is nothing like
It was – before.
I must do
Everything
Within my power
To find the rainbow
After this storm.
I must set my ego aside
And find the light
In my new life-
My new norm.
For there is beauty
To be found
In every life cycle
And in every living form.
-Tanielle 6.20.22
Colors and words sing and dance
to the rhythm of my heart, my spirit, my being.
They become the ultimate expression
for my life journey, my perspective, and my feelings.
I create art and poetry from the purest part
of who I am – at my core.
In all the moments when I feel lost, alone, and afraid,
I try to remind myself of who I was – before.
Before all of the hardships,
life traumas, and loss.
Before I grew up,
and my childhood innocence was lost.
I’m still that little girl
deep down inside,
Staring at the world
with wonder,
and mesmerized eyes.
I still get excited about
lightning and thunder,
and rainbows after the rain.
I still love to jump in puddles,
stare up at the moon, and stars,
and make snowmen on snow days.
I still love to lay down
and stare up at the clouds in the sky,
daydream about life,
and what it would be like to fly.
I still get excited for fun in the sun,
and playing in the warm water.
I still feel so much love inside my heart
just to be my parents’ daughter.
I still love to camp in the mountains,
go for hikes, and make smores around the fire.
I love to live, and I live to love,
create art, write, teach, and inspire.
I love to give homemade gifts
because those were my favorite to get growing up.
I love to spend time around those dearest to my heart
because memories fill up my cup.
I love to bake homemade cookies
because my grandma’s were my favorite.
I love westerns and football on Sundays
because that’s what my early days were made of.
I love the smell of lilacs in spring,
my grandpa’s garage where he worked,
and my grandparents’ swimming pool chlorine.
My joy and happiness in every memory
will forever make my heart sing.
I love to remember all the ways
I love and adore my life,
And I’m still that little girl
deep down inside-
who can’t wait to go play outside.
-Tanielle Childers © 5.1.22
Some days-
You feel tired
Of fighting,
Tired of hiding
The heartache
Behind your smile.
Some days
You feel like crying
Instead of siding
With positivity,
Even if only
For just a little while.
Some days
No matter
How deep you dig,
Happiness,
Hope, and sunshine
Are difficult to feel.
Some days
It’s okay
To let down and let go,
And to not feel okay,
And just get rest
So you can heal.
Some days
Are not fun days,
Or hit-the-ground-running’ days
Or give-it-your-all days
And it’s okay
Not to be that way every day.
Some days
You just need
To give yourself grace,
And walk away
from the rat race.
It’s okay to take a break.
Some days
Are mental health days
That require
Other ways of dealing-
With a lot less people pleasing
And that’s okay, too.
Some days
There are better ways
Of living, and being,
And giving-
Even when that means
Giving more time for you.
After all,
We’re all just humans-
Being.
And it’s okay to just be human
And nothing more-
Some days.
-Tanielle Childers ©️ 4.26.22
This was written the day my chemo port was placed, and the night before my very first chemo treatment. I was terrified of all of the unknowns. I leaned into God at every scary turn and it was everything I needed and more – to get me through it. May this poem find those who need it and offer up all of the same to you in your time of need or for someone you love! Love, light and giant hugs to all going through their own life battles right now. May we become beacons of light in the eye of the storm we’re in, to give hope to all those who follow a similar life journey! 💗💗💗
Laughter is the best medicine – so don’t forget to laugh as often as possible to get those endorphins coming your way. Stay strong!
God’s grace-
is a glorious place.
A prayerful,
and meditative state-
filled with peace,
unconditional love,
and safe keeping.
Releasing,
And unleashing me
from all that burdens
my weary,
and tethered mind-
to fearful,
and unkind thoughts-
that slowly rise up
to the tip top.
Becoming louder
And more prominent,
and dominant
than my faith.
I pause in reflection-
And feel God beckon
me back-
to trust in Him
completely.
To not fear this road
I see in front of me.
But to believe in Him,
And to seek the beauty,
amongst the rubble
He has lovingly
bestowed upon me.
I must always retrace
my steps-
back to the quiet,
prayerful space-
when I feel lost-
And He will come
to greet me,
and I must lean in
with everything I am-
to learn every lesson
He is teaching me.
I feel renewed
by the power of faith
He has restored within me.
He refuses
to give up on me.
God’s grace
is everything.
Even through
all of these life trials,
and tribulations-
I am humbled and blessed
by the outpouring
of God’s greatest kindnesses,
and I am wholeheartedly,
and profoundly gracious.
I will do my very best
to remain steadfast,
and courageous-
in the face of-
my greatest challenges.
God’s grace-
Is the most glorious,
and peaceful place.
Where my tears
of gratitude
stream freely.
Where my heart
is overcome
by His eternal,
and everlasting
love for me.
God’s grace
never ceases-
to amaze me.
His amazing grace
always finds me
in the dark,
and reaches out
with his undying love-
to once again save me…
How great is our God!
-Tanielle Childers ©️ 3.21.22
As much as we’d like
to think we control
our future and our fate…
We don’t decide
when or how we will go,
much less, our final date.
I have become
very hyper-aware
of the moments-
and all I’ve been given.
One silver lining
to cancer, I suppose-
is I’ve realized
I’d better get to livin’!
Life isn’t perfect,
nor every day sweet.
But each waking moment
is a gift, and a blessing.
Soak up the minutes,
love hard, and be present.
Hold onto faith through the good,
the bad and the messy.
Have patience,
be kind, and accountable,
Treat your neighbors
as you would yourself.
Live now, live bold,
and laugh often.
And never put your dreams
up on that shelf.
Follow your heart,
don’t give up,
and keep going.
Money doesn’t equal success.
Chase your dreams,
inspire, and encourage.
Lift others up,
and give them your best.
Fill up your heart,
and it will fuel your spirit.
Live in joy,
And share your gift.
Time is precious,
and priceless, and finite.
Grab hold-
this life goes quick!
-Tanielle Childers ©️ 2.25.22
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