From all social media She laid low The life she lived She took back And made it her own Again No more show And tell She fell Silent To the world around her Let solidarity and peace Surround her She was no longer Bound to her Need to please Need for acceptance Need to somehow Prove her self worth Now She aimed to Please herself by Doing things She knew might Fill her heart With joy and love Her rising above Society’s unrealistic Expectations Of what a woman And mother Should look like and be We Are human And yes, we are Super women But not by Society’s definition We are Perfectly imperfect Just the way we are In the now With every one of Our hard earned Tiger stripes And scars And we are Beautiful In our every shape And size As our amazing bodies Transform Throughout our lives I hereby declare We are Our own prize Unobjectified And we deserve To respect And love ourselves For far more Than just our outsides
There’s something magical- About a midnight sky… Blanketed by stars; A million dancing little lights.
The soft glow of the crescent moon- The silky haze of the Milky Way. There’s something beautiful In the thought- That half of the world’s dreams Will soon be underway.
There’s something peaceful- About the cool midnight air. A calming and soothing energy- A time of gratitude, reflection, And prayer.
There’s a spiritual shift- When the bustling day Finally winds down, And transforms into night. It’s the perfect time- To wish upon a star… To snuggle up close, And tuck your loved ones in- Just right.
There’s something magical About a midnight sky… Silent within our own thoughts, And millions of prayers Reaching up towards the heavens- Each night.
There’s a magic- Comforting us from way up high; A twinkling beacon of hope- Watching over this side of the world- Until the next sun begins to rise-
DEPRESSION – Calls EVERY thing Into question. It never arrives- To teach us a lesson.
It’s unrelenting, Unforgiving, So belittling.
It thrives on Self-oppression, Self-aggression, And self-demise —
I DESPISE — Depression. NO question.
Behind our eyes And our smile, There’s a darkness That can hold us- Captive. Triggers make it Reactive. The impact it has – on Our Spirit, our mood, Our ability to interact — We retract. Silently, slyly, shyly. Not wanting to be a burden- Yet, so desperately Wanting to be heard – ‘n Struggling to find Enough courage To purge it — out loud. Our urge is — Too proud- To let it all come out.
Instead— We tend to suffer alone – Inside our own head. Keeping it to ourselves- Is what we do best.
I pray for the day When the topic of Our mental health Isn’t so taboo—
When our pride and ego Can take a backseat — to- Our vulnerability, And reaching out- To help others through.
Alone, We can do so little. Together, There is so much more We can ALL do — Better.
Speaking openly About our struggles- Allows others To feel comfortable Doing the same. It’s high time — for change.
I DESPISE — Depression. No question!
And if you, Or someone you know, Suffers from Depression, too? Reach out- Check in- Let them know How much you care- Even if you may not Understand — It makes a difference Just knowing you’re there.
To the best and most beautiful creations of my life
In such uncertain times, with the fires consuming our beautiful state of Colorado, with Covid #s rising again and with the looming presidential election upon us creating so much negativity and divisiveness….these life moments feel more fleeting to me than ever before!
Our time here is but a blink and so are these precious moments with our children and loved ones – which I’ve been guilty of taking for granted time and time again. I want nothing more than to comfort my children and reassure them of more certain times ahead, not really knowing what that looks or feels like. I feel helpless in so many ways as a mom. I’m doing my best, but have I done enough??? That question keeps me up at night! My kids are 16, 12 and 18 months. I lie next to our youngest at night, watching her sleep … and wish I could go back in time and spend more time with my older 2 doing the same…..these moments are truly life’s greatest treasure.
Art has had to take a back seat (and I miss it terribly), but I still have time to write poetry as I lie in bed with a mind that refuses to rest … this poem came to me the other night and would not leave me until I wrote (texted) it down in a message to myself … and then to our oldest 2. It’s so important to always let them know how you feel and to say it often because you just never know what tomorrow holds.
To my children – the best and most beautiful creations of my lifetime:
If I could… I’d hug you tight. I’d snuggle and cuddle you Through the night.
I’d comfort you- And hold you close. I’d rub your face, And kiss your nose.
I’d bring you peace, And let you rest. I’d pause the world- And take your stress.
I’d make your every Dream come true. I’d squeeze your hand- And celebrate you!
I’d remind you Of all the wonderful ways- You brighten my world On the darkest of days.
I’d look into Your beautiful eyes- And tell you, “I love you!” A hundred more times.
I’d hug you close- And never let go. I’d freeze the moments And never grow old.
If I could… Go back in time, I’d spend more hours With your hand in mine.
I’d play with you, And sing with you. I’d dance the whole night Through with you.
We’d walk and talk And stare up at the sky, And watch the clouds And world go by.
We’d wish upon Every twinkling star- Soaking in every moment Right where we are.
We’d giggle and laugh The whole day through- Telling dad jokes & bad jokes, And mom jokes, too.
If I could… Go back in time- I’d make more moments For your heart and mine.
I love you more than All the stars that shine. I’m your biggest fan & I’ll always- Carry your heart in mine.
I will love you forever And always… I will be proud of you forever In ALL ways!
Thank you from my heart to all who came out to Art in the Park over the weekend! It was an incredible show and weekend and I met so many amazing people. I genuinely and wholeheartedly loved getting to talk with everyone one on one. Seeing people connect to my art in such a positive way – seeing them smiling, excited and inspired…is priceless and a profound reminder to me that no matter how difficult this path may sometimes be, it is the path I was meant to be on. It’s who I am and what I was meant to do. Thank you all for inspiring me to want to create more and more art. I can’t wait to get back in my studio because of you.Thank you from my heart! Truly!💜
My heart falls to the lowest of lows
When a life is lost that I love.
But my heart, too, feels the highest of highs
When I’m filled with immense gratitude and love.
I am passionate about the heart of this life
And every journey here on earth.
I speak openly of life and death
And all that I have learned.
All of the moments spent with family and friends
Are times I treasure most.
I hold onto those with all of my hear
And keep them very close.
In times of grief, I reflect on my life
And dive in to understand.
Every day brings a brand new set of emotions
And I welcome them the best I can.
In allowing these emotions to move through me,
My heart is overcome by all that it feels.
But I’m giving my spirit permission to cry
And to take this time to heal.
When I fall, I fall hard.
I shake my fist at the sky and cry my way through-
But I love this life and the family I have
And I’ll stand tall again with strength anew.
I am moved to write down these moments as I feel them-
About the emotions that tug at my heart.
I believe our lives are about connecting with one another
We were not meant to go through it alone or apart.
Starting over is a far cry from easy.
There are days when it feels harder than it needs to be.
Moments when life feels as though it’s defeating me.
Deflating me. Cheating me.
Making me fight just to keep the peace in me.
Shadowing the light I try to keep alive inside of me.
Days when giving up feels like an easier choice for me.
Just rolling over and letting life get the very best of me.
Giving in and allowing the tough times to conquer me.
But, that’s not how I want the story to end for me.
These hard times are breaking me down
And allowing me to build a better me.
Teaching me new faith and strength
And renewing my belief in me.
I know I have what it takes
To be the best version of me I’m able to be.
I’ve never been one to give up so easily.
The dawn of a new day
Gives way to another fight for me.
One foot in front of the other
Towards the person, I wish to be.
Acknowledging my emotions
And taking time out for the healing of me.
Celebrating the moments in every small victory.
Pausing to take in this beautiful world that surrounds me.
Feeling the love and support all around me.
I will take these broken wings
And learn to fly — To defy gravity.
Today was a really tough day for me,
But it will not be the last of me.
I’ll be back tomorrow-
To rise up again against the weak in me.
To push forward beyond my own negativity.
Letting go of my poor self-image
And all the doubts I have in me-
And run towards everything
God put me on this earth to be.