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I’m Learning

I’m learning…
What it is to have an
Extreme duality of emotions
In cancer survivorship.
And that it’s okay
To acknowledge and accept it
Fully. Deeply.
And honestly.

I am a breast cancer
Survivor.
I’m currently
In remission-
I have really great days-
Where I feel confident,
Positive. Hopeful.
A small piece
Of the carefree
Light-hearted version of me.
And yet-
I still go through darkness.
Really difficult times
That feel extremely
Isolating, depressing,
And incredibly lonely.

I wouldn’t wish these days
On anyone I love.
It’s a very challenging
Place to be.
It feels like no one around me
Really gets me-
Not anymore.
Not really.
And I don’t want to drop the heavy
On anyone around me.
I’m happy they
Don’t feel how I feel,
But my spirit sure
Longs for someone
Who did-
In these moments
When I feel so sad and conflicted.

I feel guilty for feeling
Ungrateful-
When I know
I should be thankful
Because I’m still living-
And I am-
I feel both.

I’m beyond grateful –
And I’m utterly heartbroken.
I’m so angry-
And I’m also glad.
I’m so gracious for my body-
For fighting
And healing-
And winning, so far-
And I absolutely hate it.
It makes me cry,
And it makes me mad
When I look in the mirror
And remember
What I used to have.

I’m learning
Slowly.
That it is completely okay
To feel the extremes together-
To grieve and to celebrate
In the same conflicting breath.
Because-
As a cancer survivor-
Every new day,
Is another attempt
To confront, sit with, and be okay
With whatever this day’s
Current emotion is.

-Taniellle Childers ©️ 2.24.26

Wishing You Peace

Poetry by Tanielle Childers

May today’s sunshine
Come along and kiss you
Upon your cheek,
Remind you of life’s blessings,
And bathe you in its peace.
May the afternoon showers
Wash away your worries,
And may all of your troubles
Be fleeting.
May God‘s grace
Renew your spirit,
And remind you
Of His safekeeping.

-Tanielle Childers ©️ 8/24

Just Breathe in the Present

Poetry by Tanielle Childers

Little lights flickering-
Like fireflies
In the distance.
The sun-
Slowly tucking the end
Of this wondrous day- in.

I draw in a deep breath-
And then release it,
I close my eyes-
To pause and reflect.
And to rest-
Just beneath it.

There’s a powerful
Energy that breathes
Within the flowers, trees
And natural grasses-

They weave color and life
Across the earth’s landscape-
With such joyous delight-
For the masses.

Dancing and swaying
In the breeze-
With beauty and grace,
And shaking leaves-
In untethered,
And unfurled excitement.

Drinking in
The warmth of the
Glorious sun,
And newly fallen rain-
Relaxed and calm, and still.
And basking in the glory
Of pure enlightenment.

The serenading sunrises
And sunsets
Where sweeping pastels
Paint the sky-
Alive.

Dandelions
Making wishes
And planting
Seeds of hope
For brighter tomorrows-
A thousand times-

Gliding high-
With the wind…
In an effort to
Spread their magic
And a legacy-
Forever to be
Remembered by.

Twinkling lights-
And the subtle moon glow-
Our calming,
Heavenly night light-
Blanketing the earth-
With its falling stars,
And the sweetest dreams-
Trickling down to all-
Who still believe…
In the magic.

-Tanielle Childers ©️ 4.29.24

I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

Poetry by Tanielle Childers

I am not the person
I used to be-
And I have been slow
To accept
And fully embrace
That this IS the story
God has written for me.

My darkest moments-
Have taught me to see
A deeper meaning
In the light,
And this life.
And when my battles
Grew harder,
I began to
Better understand
The power
Behind my fight.
Crying even harder-
About all of the
Most beautiful reasons-
Behind my why.

I am not the person
I used to be.
I am still-
A work in progress,
And learning so much
About the new me-
Daily.

When you have been stripped
Of physical attributes
You once identified
Yourself by,
You get to the good stuff,
And are humbled and reminded
Of all that really matters-
In this life.

I am not defined
By the darkness
Or the obstacles
I overcome.
But I must choose
To rise again and again-
To become-
My knight in shining armor
That slays the darkness
By growing into-
A better human.

I am not the person
I used to be.
But I am becoming
The person
I choose to be.
I am millions
Of sparkling lights
That dance across
The night sky-
I am the morning sun
Peeking over the horizon-
Bursting with
Magnificent colors
At sunrise-
Alive with hope.
Dancing with joy.
Giving gratitude-
And fighting
To keep shining
My love and light
From the purest
Parts of myself
Inside.

I am not the person
I used to be.
And I am finally ready
To accept the new me-
With open arms

-Tanielle ©️ 3.30.24

If the World Could See You the Way I Do

Poetry by Tanielle Childers

If the world could see you
The way that I do,
They would love you
and cherish you
Just as I do.

They would treat you
Without judgment,
And see all the reasons why-
You hold such a special place
In my heart,
And are the apple of my eye.

If the world took the time
To get to know you,
And the small joys
That make you smile,
They would go out of their way
To drop by and play for a while.

If the world could sit down
And listen to your heart,
And why you feel
All the ways you do.
They would be less quick to judge,
And more understanding
And compassionate towards you
And everything you do.

If the world could witness
Your hidden talents, humor,
Silliness, kind heart,
Inquisitive mind, and creativity-
They would honor you
And support you-
Without any hesitation.
Positively!

But even IF
The world could see you,
Know you, and understand you
In all the incredible ways like I do,
There is NO WAY, on this earth,
They could ever come close,
To loving you just as much
As I do!

-Tanielle Childers © 3.8.24

The Power of Acceptance

Poetry by Tanielle Childers

…

I’ve grown
To understand-
There is great power
In acceptance.
By surrendering
To your current reality,
You free up
Enormous space & energy.
Stop fighting-
A losing battle.
Choose to rise up,
And light-
A brand new candle.
Open your heart
And your mind
Toward new,
Forward movement,
And opportunities.
This eye-opening
Realization
Will become-
Your blossoming,
Your purpose,
Your new identity.
It’s time to surrender,
And finally let go-
Of your anger,
Bitterness,
And sorrow.
For holding on-
Will only hold off
Tomorrow.
And fighting it
Will only-
Keep you stuck
In your same old,
Broken tracks.
Pray for the courage
To move on-
In faith, and hope
And for new possibilities.
For the time has come-
For you to take
Your power back.

Have Faith

Poetry by Tanielle Childers

HAVE FAITH

Today-
I took a walk with God.
I talked to God.
I cried with God.
I asked why, and what for
and how come? with God.
I pleaded with God.
I prayed to God,
and then I waited
in silence – for God
to answer me.

I waited patiently,
and quietly.
I breathed in deeply,
and exhaled forcefully.
The tears,
and life’s let-downs
poured right out
of me.
Some days
are downright hard-
mentally.
They’re messy,
and they catch me-
off guard,
and unprepared.
But these days are there-
to remind me again…
that timing
isn’t up to me.
as to when-
or how this life
works out for me.
So I breathe in deeply-
Again.
And I turn my faith
right back to Him.
This is God’s Plan.
God’s got me.
And I’m down on my knees
waiting patiently.
Faithfully.
I’m praying silently.
Believing, and trusting
blindly…
in His timing.
In His glory.
In this life story-
that He’s lovingly
laid out for me…
This is my journey
and there’s peace
in knowing
that ultimately-
God’s got me…
In ALL things.
along every step of the way.
Every minute of every day,
God’s got me,
and He loves me.
This is God’s plan
and He has answered me this..
I must put my full faith
Into Jesus-
Nothing less.
Because-
He knows best…
Always.

HAVE FAITH.

Beautiful Scars

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Beautiful scars
on both sides of my heart.
Proof that I will do anything,
and everything-
to stay right where you are.

My family and friends
are my world.
These life moments
are like gold.
Removing my breast cancer
is my act of intention
towards my will
for growing old.

A major life-changing,
life-saving decision.
A skin-sparing,
double mastectomy.
Letting go of all that is
no longer best for me.

I haven’t lost anything!
I’ve gained my life,
and more minutes.
I’m well on my way-
to a cancer-free me.
I am blessed. I am humble,
and I am in this to win it.

Beautiful scars-
on both sides of my heart,
tell a bigger life story
of survival, revival,
God’s amazing grace,
and His everlasting glory.