Dear Dason

(a thank you poem written to honor our unborn son, exactly one year after we lost him)

ONE LOSS
I never envisioned happening.
EARTH SHATTERING WORDS
I never imagined hearing.
THAT DAY
I never saw unfolding.
A NIGHTMARE
I never dreamed of knowing.
ONE MOMENT
Changed our lives forever.
ONE TINY LIFE
Transformed my health for the better.
ONE MOMENT AT A TIME
My broken heart recovered.
ONE YEAR
Battling Postpartum and depression.
With the strength of your spirit,
God’s grace and protection.
IN HONOR OF YOU
I took a series of small steps
In a healthier life direction.
365 DAYS AGO
I began a journey of rediscovering
The true miracle of what it means to be alive.
BECAUSE 365 DAYS AGO
We were forced to say goodbye
To the life I carried inside.
You’ve been the brightest light-
Through all my darkest of times.
Losing you has both tested and strengthened me.
You have completely transformed my life.
It’s been a long, hard road
Since that awful, dreadful day.
But we have found some sort of peace
In your death along our way.
As a family, we grew stronger,
Pulled together, held each other,
Cried together, laughed together,
Spent time with one another.
Spoke openly of life and death
And how nothing lasts forever.
You are and always will be
Our sweet angel gone too soon.
We miss you, son. We always will.
They miss their brother, too.
I cannot express the depth of my gratitude.
I love you Dason, with all my heart
And owe my life to you.

– Tanielle Childers © August 2013